Green with Facebook Envy

Facebook Envy - we all have a little bit of it, right? As for me, each perusal of my news feed reveals photos of travels to exotic countries, big moves to exciting new cities, jobs as fashion magazine editors and Hollywood actors - all of others that I, at least temporarily, wish i could be. Really, honestly, even the constant barrage of baby pictures and wedding date reminders makes me a little green... I haven't been writing in my blog for a little while because I think that, somewhere in the midst of my own life changes and these images of what a great life is "supposed" to be, I lost a little bit of me. I have no idea where I'm going, but even more frightening, no clue as to where I really want to be. The primary assumption behind Facebook jealousies must be that the exploits that our 1000 closest friends find themselves enjoying - and posting for the world to see - must be quite fulfilling - either that, or they are something that WE would appreciate, if only we had the chance... [insert reasons why your life can't be as cool as that girl spending a random week in Thailand... Does anyone have a job anymore???] Of course, then there are those with the constantly negative Facebook posts. You know, the person who always has a crisis. My cat is dying, my pants split, my job sucks, it is raining, and I lost a limb today... Yadayadayada. Boresville. But then, of course, these Facebook friends play the imperative role of making you feel so much better about your own life. This is exactly why I insist on watching the Real Housewives (or, more importantly, Tough Love : New Orleans) - I am SO organized and together, comparatively speaking. The truth is, the majority of us likely find ourselves somewhere in the middle. Life is never perfect, whether documenting our cruise around the Mediterranean or not (although I think it doesn't hurt) or posting about our lives as stay-at-home moms - there's always someone else to be jealous of (what? Someone already came up with that? The grass is greener? Huh....) In the last year, as my life has changed drastically - I think I told myself that I didn't have much interesting to say anymore. If I don't have crazy dating stories or incredibly strong opinions about politics and social issues to share... Well, what do I really have? The reality is, that I was likely never that interesting to begin with and anyone reading this is probably doing me a favor (which I appreciate, so thanks!). But I'm learning more than ever about myself and maybe those are the kinds of things I should share. So, that's it for tonight. I'm going to make a more concerted effort to update more and pressure myself less to come up with super witty and/or importantly intelligent posts. There are some major life changes in the works, but nothing that can be shared with my tens of readers yet... Xo.xo.